GLASS
I have been having this fantasy lately where I
am walking
down the stairs with a drink,
lose my footing,
and then fall in
such a way that the brim of the glass
is forced directly up into the roof
of my mouth.
I can taste the glass.
It tastes like spring water.
Almost
metallic.
I am afraid to move my tongue for fear of slicing it.
This is
not a dream,
it's a waking fantasy,
or perhaps a premonition.
It scares me
when it happens as the image comes so suddenly.
I think
that this thought has been in my head for a long time,
I think it's just
becoming vivid now.
I was pleased when I started to recall my dreams,
but now they are coming to the surface
and spilling over into the daylight.
Maybe it has been a mistake for me to figure myself out.
I
have to try to remember
not to think these sort of thoughts,
but when I
approach stairs
I automatically think.
It's not something I can seem to
help.
I am now trying to make sure
never to walk with a glass
or
any sharp
implement
at any time,
although if I have to,
I concentrate very hard on
what I'm doing.
This is bad strategy.
Thinking about everyday things,
thinking about walking,
it makes it hard to walk.
I don't know what else
to do.
I can't just keep my hands empty forever. |